9th day of the 4th month of the 9th year of the 2nd millennium A.D

Giving each day a ridiculously long title seems to make the days more significant, and hence motivation to fight another day comes. This is the theory. Mind you everyday is what it is anyway no matter what label we give it, and since giving Fridays the label of "happy day" they seem to get worse and worse every week. Or in the case of days that people give special significance, such as Christmas or Valentine's day, you know you should be happy and everything should go to plan because it's a "magical" day. Your mind or indeed other's minds around you will have completely different outlook on the event and act accordingly, as moody and unsocialable as a deep sea creature.

The prospect of going back to school for the last term is looming over my head like a dark looming thing. It is the last few weeks I will EVER have to go back to school. Mind you, now that i think about it, what are al the exicted 6th years and myself really venturing into apart from leaving one form of control and into another. Only this one dresses itself as freedom. Dispite trying not to make many close friends this year there are a few whom i shall cry my eyes out over knowing that i might never see them again. Then again, I was never good at saying goodbye. Just dissapereing suddenly without a trace.

The exams are very close now. Too close. Everytime i sit down to revise my mind wanders off down some wooded road, past the Brandywine River and away.

Maybe it is my minds way of putting off thinking about leaving home, and i'm not afraid to admit that i'm feeling less than confident as regards to leaving home. Yet, it might not be so bad if i just throw myself into the deep end, at least that way you can look back and say "Ye Gods, remember how hard it was at the start of this". And to be honest, I prefere just jumping in and getting on with things rather than all this waiting around knowing somthing is going to happen and not knowing when.

I keep thinking to myself "What would King Aurthur do?", and then i remember that he would ask Merlin and go off on a quest to find somthing holy.